5 Solo

2025-05-05 12:28:23 Monday

Yesterday I returned to Shanghai from a short-term self-driving trip, and I drove roughly 1100km during the May Day holiday, and my life was in line with the past.

I took out the clothes I wore from my backpack and suitcase, threw them into the washing machine, listened to Liang Wendao's "Eight and a Half Minutes" podcast in my headphones, and made my own lunch today. I still remember hearing the episode of the "Eight and a Half Minutes" podcast about the anime "Funeral Frilian" on the road trip, and the relevant introduction made me suddenly want to continue to follow the Taoist priest's voice and read it completely.

It's just that after coming back, my sleep has an unusual early awakening, probably because I have adjusted my biological clock for more than a month, and I want to rest more, but I can't sleep for a while as I want, and I don't do much when I wake up, and I feel tired and sleepy. This should be the aftereffect of switching between the two lives, but the past few days have been so short that I resumed taking photos to record the incident because I took some more moments from my travels. There is always a voice in my head that is independent of myself muttering to myself, imagining many wild ideas, recalling my past life, as if everything is not over, and everything seems to be completely over.

Living alone is often a lonely thing, but on the other hand, I feel that this state of being able to think freely may be a rare luxury. Staying calm and thinking makes people feel soothed in daily time, there are still many things in life that make people anxious, but I think these temporary situations will pass at some point in the future and become a kind of memory and slice of past life experience.